April showers bring May flowers…

It’s here! It’s finally happening! Spring has finally begun! Was this not the longest Winter ever? Seriously, having snow falling from the sky up until a few days ago was ridiculous! Apparently this happens every year, but just like labor we choose to forget all about it!

So, first an update on the LO’s vision. Ironically, after seeing the resident, Dr. Wonderful, and then re-booking with a different Opthamologist in hopes of answers, the hospital called me based on my original referral to schedule an appointment with one of their specialists! As the appointment fell on the same week as the other I had made, I jumped on it to avoid going back to the awful external clinic and possibly running into Mr. Wonderful again. And, I am so thankful that we did because this new doctor, Dr. T, is fantastic! Not only did she reassure us that this was not caused by the LO’s run in with a wall, but she agreed with everything the original Optometrist said which validated my feelings about her as well. She gave us a prescription for glasses and will follow up with us in a couple of months. She admitted that the glasses would likely not fix the strabismus, but it would help with her farsightedness in the meantime while we investigate our options. We returned to the original Optometrist and got her the cutest little glasses; they suit her well and she seems to like them because she rarely takes them off! I am still planning to lodge a complaint against the external clinics’ handling of our case, but I am trying to navigate through the system to see where this complaint should be sent. They don’t make it easy!

As for her ears… all I can say is here we go again! We were at a wedding on Saturday and I looked over and saw what looked like partially melted butter leaking out of her ear. First thought, ew! Second thought, it’s no big deal as we have a standing prescription for her drops. However, it dawned on me half way home that the ear that was leaking wasn’t the one with the tube still in, it was the one which fell out back in November! This was the ear that was always full of fluid and giving her difficulty hearing. We went to the clinic bright and early Sunday morning and were prescribed yet another round of antibiotics, the 3rd in 3 months in fact, and I followed up with the on-call ENT this morning. He said that while her ear is leaking, he is confident that there is no rupture contrary to what the clinic told us. He explained the hole made for the tube had likely not fully healed and the pressure from fluid/pus build up simply pushed its way through as she has no fever, no pain and no complaints; continue with the antibiotics as well as the drops and follow up if need be in a week. The good part about this is that her ear is finally draining! It’s super gross, almost honey consistency now, but it explains so much about her difficulties! Unfortunately we missed out on her swimming class yesterday due to the infection, but maybe next week she will actually follow directions!

Who am I kidding? She is 2.5yrs old! As long as she’s having fun, I am happy!

As for me, tomorrow is hopefully the big day; a day I have been looking forward to almost as long as I’ve been a mom! On my first Mother’s Day, 2 years ago, I started taking anti-depressants to help me overcome the overwhelming anxiety I was experiencing postpartum. My goal was to come off “mommy’s-little-helper” within a year, but that was overly ambitious and I was definitely not ready so soon after returning to work as this brought about a whole new set of challenges to face. But now, another year later, I am ready! Actually, I spoke to my doctor about it last Fall but he said that Winter was not the best time to wean myself off so we would discuss again in Spring, and Spring has sprung! This is no way means that I am “cured” and “normal” now, but I certainly have learned better coping skills and ways to handle my anxiety now. And, I have also faced the reality that my anxiety was nothing new, it just exploded to levels that I was unable to control. But now I am ready!

“The first step towards change is awareness. The second step is acceptance.”
Nathaniel Branden, American Psychologist

Now, to brighten up your day a little, here is May’s wallpaper!

May 2018

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