Two and a half!

I know what you’re thinking right now… two and a half? What’s so special about two and a half? Well, in this house, a lot! To me, anyway… the LO has no idea!

Over the long weekend a lot of changes happened around the house, some out of necessity and some out of convenience. After a decade looking at a rusty old shed, we finally invested in a new one. Because it was an “all hands on deck” event, I was force to put the LO down for a nap in her own crib instead of next to me in my bed. And, you know what? She did it! With a little bit of protest, but she did it… 2 days in a row! Also, it is long overdue but we are getting a new sofa today. In order to get the old one out and make room for the delivery, we had to take down our obstacle course of baby gates – at least temporarily. But, once they were down, I didn’t see a need to put them back up. She isn’t a baby anymore; she doesn’t need to be caged up in one small living space! This is her home too and she should be allowed to explore it, freely. Will she possibly fall down the smaller staircase we have one day? Yes! But you know what? We have all done it and lived to tell about it!

She helps put her dirty laundry in the hamper and sort the clean clothing once it’s out of the wash. She helps to load the dishwasher and loves to put things away afterwards. She lives to pass the vacuum and sweep up crumbs. She struggles to get herself dressed, but she continues to try and even picks out her own outfits to wear. She helps at the grocery store, likes to bake with us, and her biggest job is to set the table every night. Who is this child??? Our amazing little girl!

Today also marks one week since I came off of anti-depressants. It hasn’t been smooth sailing, but it was… necessary. I have come to a place where I realize that much of my stress and anxiety is coming from external sources (mainly my job, unfortunately). No amount of pills will make the world around me change, the only thing I can do is learn to cope with the situation or move on… which is what I hope to do, soon. I have put my desires out into the universe and I am waiting for them to blossom! I may go back on some herbal remedies in the meantime, but I am feeling things out before I decide to go that route, or not.

And, last but not least, I woke up to a post on Instagram from P!nk that sums up everything going on in my head today quite clearly, so I had to share. No, we don’t have a second on the way or anything, but this resonates even having just one.
I feel like I had it all figured out when she was younger. When it was just her. Now that there’s two, and such different ages, I feel flustered so much of the time. The older she gets the less clear I am on how to guide her. Do I take the raw honest tough way? Do I cuddle her and tell her to not to worry? Do I let her be sassy knowing I want her to be strong and need her to be strong to survive in this world? Of course, but how do you interject subtlety and kindness? I already know I worry too much, don’t even bother telling me about that. I’m aware. Thoughts?

Ok, the oven is beeping at me... which means the cupcakes are ready! Yes, cupcakes... what better way to celebrate than with tiny little 2.5 year old sized cakes?!

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