Therapy… it’s complicated.
My first 3 sessions are over and I only have a couple more remaining from my current “package”. I feel as though my head is in a better place now, and my direction(s) are more clearly defined, but with limited sessions (provided by my employer) it is hard to get to the bottom of everything.
As for the therapist herself, we actually knew each other from high school. We never really interacted, but we knew of one another. Initially I was apprehensive about this when booking with her, but my employer changed providers recently and their options were extremely limited. I reached out to let her know of the potential conflict, and we both agreed that it would not get in the way. She assured me that the decision was ultimately mine, and I am glad that I stuck with her! While we hung around very different crowds, way back when, she seems to have a lot of personal experiences aligned with my own that has helped provide a lot of insight for me.
The top 3 challenges I have narrowed things down to are 1) where are my boundaries and do they need to be redefined, 2) do I have help that I am not utilizing and 3) my maternal struggle (past issues influence on present instincts). Clearly there is an overlap in all of these areas, and I am trying to work those out as well; at work, at home, in my relationship, with family, friendships and for myself as well.
Although, sometimes there is nothing to work out.
While usually reserved for a relationship status on Facebook, “it’s complicated” has begun to creep into my day to day life in regards to co-workers, family and friends alike. Ironically, these situations can be best summed up like a "Friends" episode title; "the one where they always double book and cancel on me", "the one where water proves thicker than blood”, "the one where they think they’re being helpful but they’re not", "the one where the invitation was lost in the mail", "the one where they called because they needed something", "the one where I found out - insert important news - through social media" and, finally, "the one where I walked away, because I simply deserved more".
As we grow through different stages of our lives, we certainly outgrow many things. And sometimes, stuff just gets complicated and there isn’t always something that you can do about it. That is a lesson I’ve learned as well!
So, yeah, in short… life’s complicated.
As for the therapist herself, we actually knew each other from high school. We never really interacted, but we knew of one another. Initially I was apprehensive about this when booking with her, but my employer changed providers recently and their options were extremely limited. I reached out to let her know of the potential conflict, and we both agreed that it would not get in the way. She assured me that the decision was ultimately mine, and I am glad that I stuck with her! While we hung around very different crowds, way back when, she seems to have a lot of personal experiences aligned with my own that has helped provide a lot of insight for me.
The top 3 challenges I have narrowed things down to are 1) where are my boundaries and do they need to be redefined, 2) do I have help that I am not utilizing and 3) my maternal struggle (past issues influence on present instincts). Clearly there is an overlap in all of these areas, and I am trying to work those out as well; at work, at home, in my relationship, with family, friendships and for myself as well.
Although, sometimes there is nothing to work out.
While usually reserved for a relationship status on Facebook, “it’s complicated” has begun to creep into my day to day life in regards to co-workers, family and friends alike. Ironically, these situations can be best summed up like a "Friends" episode title; "the one where they always double book and cancel on me", "the one where water proves thicker than blood”, "the one where they think they’re being helpful but they’re not", "the one where the invitation was lost in the mail", "the one where they called because they needed something", "the one where I found out - insert important news - through social media" and, finally, "the one where I walked away, because I simply deserved more".
As we grow through different stages of our lives, we certainly outgrow many things. And sometimes, stuff just gets complicated and there isn’t always something that you can do about it. That is a lesson I’ve learned as well!
So, yeah, in short… life’s complicated.
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