I AM - BECAUSE YOU ARE

Anxiety is a chameleon; it manifests itself in different ways. It comes and goes as it pleases and often strikes without warning or reason. It is unpredictable, and just when you think you have it all figured out, you don’t. Going on the assumption that I have a form of Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD) coupled with generalized anxiety, I (along with my therapist and GP) decided to reduce my anxiety meds as we come into summer, but only slightly. I dropped the dose by ¼ with the intention of dropping to ½ by the end of next month. But, I am struggling. DH has been traveling again, work is work, things are piling up at home, and so on… but I am also facing some health/medical decisions right now that I have been relatively quiet about, and they are tough decisions to make; for myself, and for my family. Yesterday DH and I went to an information session at the hospital actually. About half way through I felt like I was burning up, I started fanning myself with the handouts and noticed I

I admit that there are days I would like to change my name, to run away from it all, to book a hotel room all to myself and binge watch Netflix all day, to get on a plane and land on a beach anywhere in the world and take a nap... But, wherever I am and whatever I do... I never feel as complete as I do when I am with her. She is my heartbeat, she is my home, she is my everything. She will forever be my always, my raison d'etre, my little girl. Being a mother is by far the most challenging but most rewarding job I have ever had. Being a mom has made me a better person. I have learned patience. I understand unconditional love. I am more compassionate and forgiving. I appreciate the little things far more than ever before. I am aware. I am beyond thankful everything this tiny human has brought to my life. So, while it is technically Mother's Day... I prefer to celebrate everything that is my Daughter instead. After all, she made me who I am today... MOM (no, Mommy, I hate i