I AM - BECAUSE YOU ARE

"He said when the seasons changed, I changed. For the first time I think he was right" Mud Vein by Tarryn Fisher Trying to gather my thoughts these days is like trying to wrestle a toddler into a car seat during a temper tantrum – impossible! What I thought was a weeklong depression became a month-long struggle; as the depression pulled me down the anxiety amped up and the emotional storm began. But not all storms come to disrupt your life, some come to clear your path and turn everything sunny side up. I reached out to my doctors for help and we decided that it was time to try a new antidepressant. What I thought was malabsorption of my old medication, due to my sleeve, was more likely breakthrough depression – a sign that my former antidepressants just weren’t working anymore. I had been on them for the better part of 4 years and even after a recent increase in dose, I simply continued to spiral. Apparently, this can occur naturally for 1/3 of people taking antid

Someone asked me how the daycare return was going... But I deleted all of my messages and  I can't remember who so I figured I would update here. When the LO was only a few months old I needed somewhere I could rely on, people I could trust, and a place that felt safe. After calling numerous places looking for help, I found our daycare; but I wasn't going to just leave her anywhere. I went, I visited, and I immediately felt welcomed, at home, and calm... probably for the first time in the 3 months prior. Jump ahead to covid times and after 3 months at home with her, we had to make the decision once again; keep her home or send her to daycare. We decided to send her back, and we are now starting our third week and it has been the best decision! The daycare is following all safety measures, there are barely any kids attending, she is much happier overall and she is much more... herself, for lack of a better explanation. We also get time to enjoy the quiet, work in peace, and rela