I AM - BECAUSE YOU ARE

It's new year's eve and I guess that means I should be posting something wise, profound and inspirational. Or maybe a resolution to be broken a few weeks in to the new year? I'm not sure if I have any of that, but I have my truth so here it goes. I'm 40 years old. I've learned from most of my mistakes, but there will be more to make. Nobody's perfect. I recognize that I owe the biggest apology to myself for putting my younger self through things I didn't deserve. But, I am thankful for my struggles because they showed me my strengths. Strengths that I need now. I swear like a sailor and use please and thank you like a saint. I'm complicated like that. I over analyze things because I'm nervous about what could happen if I'm not prepared. I either give too many fucks, or no fucks at all. I haven't quite found the balance yet. Sometimes I shut down for days and don't really talk to anyone, but most days I can't keep quiet for more t

Another year, another 52-week savings challenge complete and $1378 in the vacation fund! Actually, more than that, because I would randomly throw extra money into the account throughout the year that I didn’t need to be wasting! And, that was a good decision, because with a big year ahead of me I am hoping to go away a little bit longer than usual after I recover so every penny counts! I think this is the third year that I have done this, and every time a couple more people get on board so with 2020 around the corner here are the details again: For anyone who decides to join me, I still highly recommend doing it backwards; start with 52$ the first week and by the holidays you will be down to single digit deposits. It is much less stressful this way and, like last year, I finished my Christmas shopping early and simply made donations through the month of December to places like the Montreal Children’s hospital, Easter Seals Kids in support of my BFF and so on as I didn’t have to

Over the summer I mentioned that major lifestyle and nutrition changes were on the horizon, and now that they are closer than ever I figured it was time to let everyone in on the secret. About 2.5yrs ago, my endocrinologist spoke to me about bariatric surgery, specifically a gastric sleeve, in order to help me lose weight as well as (hopefully) reverse my diabetes. My initial reaction was nope, no way, not going to happen and she told me to just go home and think about it. Which I did, a lot, before calling her office a couple of weeks after and asking her to put in the referral. In part because I knew that the waiting list was quite long and in part because I know she wouldn’t have suggested it if she didn’t truly think I would benefit from it. I told myself that I would try and make the changes myself while I waited and once they called me, I could always tell them that I wasn’t interested. Well, they finally called last summer and I hadn’t made the progress I would have liked so

Apparently, I am really bad at keeping up with #CurrentlyReading, because once again I am late posting as this book is already finished! Clearly I have been reading more than writing these days! Actually, I tend to do that when I discover a new author. Plus, I wanted to get though all of her other stand alone novels in anticipation of her new book, The Wives , coming out later this week.  And that brings me to: Atheists Who Kneel and Pray by Tarryn Fisher It wasn’t a bad read, but I did struggle to get through it because I was losing interest in the subject. With the other books, I liked that I wasn’t always able to predict the outcomes, the psychological aspect to them, the twists and turns; but this one was very straight forward. Which is funny, because that’s the type of story I once preferred, but now I find myself needing something that uses your brain a little more. So, overall, this is how Tarryn Fisher’s books stacked up for me: 2019 F*ck Marriage – loved it, and