A second bite of the apple: "The losers Bench"
Over the summer I mentioned that major lifestyle and nutrition changes were on the horizon, and now that they are closer than ever I figured it was time to let everyone in on the secret.
About 2.5yrs ago, my endocrinologist spoke to me about bariatric surgery, specifically a gastric sleeve, in order to help me lose weight as well as (hopefully) reverse my diabetes. My initial reaction was nope, no way, not going to happen and she told me to just go home and think about it. Which I did, a lot, before calling her office a couple of weeks after and asking her to put in the referral. In part because I knew that the waiting list was quite long and in part because I know she wouldn’t have suggested it if she didn’t truly think I would benefit from it. I told myself that I would try and make the changes myself while I waited and once they called me, I could always tell them that I wasn’t interested.
Well, they finally called last summer and I hadn’t made the progress I would have liked so I am doing it.
Next month I officially join “The Losers Bench”, a common term among the bariatric support communities for weight loss surgery, when I get my Gastric Sleeve surgery. Research it and you will see that it is not a quick fix and certainly not an easy way out. It is simply a tool to help you lose the weight in the beginning, but it is up to you to keep it off once and for all. It is definitely a long journey and not a sprint.
I am not doing this to fit into a bikini, I am doing it to be the best me I can be, physically and mentally, for myself and for my daughter. I am sick of being sick, tired of being tired, and fed up of being the fat girl. What I lose in weight I hope to gain in life, self-confidence, control and my own happiness. I will admit that I am ashamed it got to this point, but it’s getting to this point that is making me realize I need to make these changes, and a diet just won’t cut it – I need a whole lifestyle change.
And, yes, of course I am scared, nervous, and a little overwhelmed with it all… but I am also excited!
Some people think this means you get to binge yourself all the way to operating room now, but that is not the case at all. In fact, I am not even allowed to gain weight before surgery. So, I have already made a number of changes as I expected this to happen back in October; next is the elimination of sugar from my diet (AFTER the holidays, I’m not insane) and then the big 14-day liquid fast before surgery. And, when I say liquid, I mean liquid! I will not be a happy camper during my own personal “Hunger Games”; I will be hangry, I will likely have headaches as I get them very easily, and I will probably be quite tired.
But once again… sorry, not sorry! That’s my motto for the next year; nope, the rest of my new life!
Thank you all for your support, and if you don’t have anything nice and supportive to say, please say nothing at all!
About 2.5yrs ago, my endocrinologist spoke to me about bariatric surgery, specifically a gastric sleeve, in order to help me lose weight as well as (hopefully) reverse my diabetes. My initial reaction was nope, no way, not going to happen and she told me to just go home and think about it. Which I did, a lot, before calling her office a couple of weeks after and asking her to put in the referral. In part because I knew that the waiting list was quite long and in part because I know she wouldn’t have suggested it if she didn’t truly think I would benefit from it. I told myself that I would try and make the changes myself while I waited and once they called me, I could always tell them that I wasn’t interested.
Well, they finally called last summer and I hadn’t made the progress I would have liked so I am doing it.
Next month I officially join “The Losers Bench”, a common term among the bariatric support communities for weight loss surgery, when I get my Gastric Sleeve surgery. Research it and you will see that it is not a quick fix and certainly not an easy way out. It is simply a tool to help you lose the weight in the beginning, but it is up to you to keep it off once and for all. It is definitely a long journey and not a sprint.
I am not doing this to fit into a bikini, I am doing it to be the best me I can be, physically and mentally, for myself and for my daughter. I am sick of being sick, tired of being tired, and fed up of being the fat girl. What I lose in weight I hope to gain in life, self-confidence, control and my own happiness. I will admit that I am ashamed it got to this point, but it’s getting to this point that is making me realize I need to make these changes, and a diet just won’t cut it – I need a whole lifestyle change.
And, yes, of course I am scared, nervous, and a little overwhelmed with it all… but I am also excited!
Some people think this means you get to binge yourself all the way to operating room now, but that is not the case at all. In fact, I am not even allowed to gain weight before surgery. So, I have already made a number of changes as I expected this to happen back in October; next is the elimination of sugar from my diet (AFTER the holidays, I’m not insane) and then the big 14-day liquid fast before surgery. And, when I say liquid, I mean liquid! I will not be a happy camper during my own personal “Hunger Games”; I will be hangry, I will likely have headaches as I get them very easily, and I will probably be quite tired.
But once again… sorry, not sorry! That’s my motto for the next year; nope, the rest of my new life!
Thank you all for your support, and if you don’t have anything nice and supportive to say, please say nothing at all!
Note: Sister blog, A Second Bite of the Apple, will feature only #SecondBite re-posts as well as an Instagram feed from @asecondbiteoftheapple
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