I AM - BECAUSE YOU ARE

This week has been absolutely craptastic! Actually, what I thought I would look back on as my weakest moment of the fast has turned out to be one of the funniest moments of this week! It started on Sunday, day 10. I was hangry! I was grumpy, I was fed up, I was just over it all. I am not a rabbit and I was tired of eating like one. And, to top off the day, my lovely DH went out and got Chinese takeout for him and the LO. Seriously?! That was it. I decided enough was enough, I was going to have the broth of a wonton soup to satisfy my "hanger". I ate every bite with a tiny spoon and it was nothing less than fantastic! It was just missing the wontons... of which my daughter graciously left one remaining on her plate. I was about to throw it away when I snapped; fuck it! One wonton won't kill a well behaved two week fast! I devoured it, with no regrets. On Monday, I admit that I had a bit of guilt about my slip-up, but my roller coaster of emotions and general anxiety got th...

I'm dyyyyyyiiiinnnnngggggg! Just kidding! I am happy to report that this hasn't been as bad as I was preparing myself for. And, I'm not even hungry anymore. In fact, the last couple of days I have been forcing myself to eat just to avoid getting headaches again since the first few days were rough.  I don't think I have drank all 5 Boost drinks once these last 8 days, and I certainly am not eating 4-5 cups of vegetables, but at least 3 in salad form. I made a few hot vegetable options but none were appetizing so I'm going to stick to salads for the rest of this fast. I've been battling some pretty bad anxiety as well but I can't say for sure if the diet has anything to do with that or not since it's not the first rollercoaster I have found myself on in the last few months. While I am not hungry, I AM hangry! I have cravings that I cannot do anything about, and it's frustrating. It's one thing if I'm craving chips or chocolate cake, ...

It's time, let the Hunger Games begin! This is day one of my 2 week fast. Technically I already cheated by having my usual Tim Horton's for breakfast, but I really didn't feel capable of breaking my morning routine on 1) a Friday and 2) the last day of hell week at work. So, with that our of the way, I am now officially going to starve myself to the operating room! I am allowed 5 Boost Diabetic drinks a day, 4-5 cups of approved vegetables and sugar free jello. That's it folks! Thankfully it is only for 2 weeks and then a whole new lifestyle begins for me! With that in mind, I admittedly spent the first 10 days of 2020 eating pretty much whatever I wanted and documenting along the way (take a look at @asecondbiteoftheapple ). Now it's time I focus on the present! Oh, and I have to admit, I've had Gloria Gaynor's " I Will Survive " on repeat in my head these last days like an ode to my former diet: At first I was afraid, I was petrified Kept thi...