Counterintuitive friendships

When I want to chat, I text - a lot.
When I want to talk, I call and sometimes talk for hours.
When I want to go out somewhere, I invite someone along for company.
When there is something to celebrate. we get together and celebrate!

This is who I am. I am social and I crave interaction. I spend quality time with people that I love!

But not everyone is like me.
Some are the complete opposite so I try to slow my roll.
I remind myself that not everyone is “available”.

I can text, but they won’t answer.
I could call, but if they answer I’d feel like I would be interrupting.
I’d offer to hang out, but the answer would almost always be no.
And as for a celebration? Well – Covid has that covered for now!

A few in my life are the latter. One who I live with. A couple who I cannot see myself living without.

Disappearing for months, resurfacing like no time has passed.
Only available once in a blue moon, and even then.
Never part of a crowd, sometimes one-on-one, but usually not.

It’s frustrating at times.
It’s annoying at others.
It’s challenging, always.
And it’s sometimes upsetting.

But it is what it is. I won't change them; I can adapt myself or walk away. And I'm not a quitter.

Someone asked why I put up with this, I wouldn't have before.
The answer is simple, again, I’ve changed – and a lot has changed me.
Sometimes you just have to learn HOW to love the ones you love.

And you can learn a lot from those who are unlike yourself.
I've come to appreciate the silence around me.
I've come to enjoy spending time alone.
And I'm starting to learn how to reconnect with myself.  

Be you, that's what most important. No apologies. No judgment.