I AM - BECAUSE YOU ARE

I'm not late, but I am also horribly uninspired. I am so overwhelmed with everything going on in my life right now that I barely had time to think about this, let alone put it together. My mood is very black and white right now as well, but I didn't want to reflect that for a whole month so I went with a muted yellow. September 2019 As year end is quickly approaching, I am playing around with other ideas for monthly wallpapers because these calendars are getting quite mundane for me. I rarely use them anymore, and I originally created them for myself! Happy back-to-school everyone!

I have always known that we would be a one and done family. I have said it 1000 times and even gotten upset when people have questioned me about having a sibling for our LO. I also just turned 40 and, subconsciously, that was always another cut off for me should we have decided to change our minds. But opening my email Tuesday morning to a message from our fertility clinic about our 6 remaining embryos jarred me. We could either keep them frozen for a yearly fee of 350$, discard them, donate them for research and teaching or donate them to a woman/couple that needed them. 350$ per year seemed like a waste of money since we do not plan to use them. If i were younger, i would have considered this but not now. Discarding them, while an option many choose, seems to be a waste. I worked hard for those embryos! If they aren't going to become little humans, they should still be productive in some way after all those blood, sweat and tears. Donation for research and teaching had always be...

With 40 years looming around the corner, I’ve gotta say… adulting is hard! I mean, generally speaking, everything is under control – but it takes effort to make it look easy! I generally do nothing for my birthday; dinner with DH and the LO and that’s about it. But, every decade or so I like to mix things up a little. I agreed to let my co-workers throw me a little birthday lunch which was held yesterday. It was small, with a guest list that I created, so that was fantastic! Friday I originally had plans for a 5 a 7 but those have fallen through and we will be doing my MIL’s birthday instead. Saturday I have reserved a table for about 15 of us at a kids amusement center. People keep asking me why I would do that for MY birthday and all I can say is that I wouldn’t be me without my LO so, why not? Plus, foam ball air cannons I can shoot people with… I mean, duh! And Sunday is the BIG DAY. Dinner with a couple of dozen friends and family followed by a custom ordered birthday cake all f...

You and me were always with each other Before we knew the others was ever there You and me we belong together Just like a breath needs the air I told you if you called I would come runnin' Across the highs the lows and the in between You and me we've got two minds that think as one And our hearts march to the same beat They say everything it happens for a reason You can be flawed enough but perfect for a person Someone who will be there for you when you fall apart Guiding your direction when you're riding through the dark, Oh that's you and me You and me we're searching' for the same light Desperate for a cure to this disease Well some days are better than others, But I fear no thing as long as you're with me They say everything' it happens for a reason You… You and me we're searching' for the same light Desperate for a cure to this disease Well some days are better than others, But I fear no thing as long as you're w...

Sorry beloved Old El Paso Taco Kit, but I doubt you will not be making a recurring appearance in my house ever again! There is a new love in my life, I think I have died and gone to taco heaven! In July we went to the annual Kahnawake Pow Wow for the first time in a couple of years. As always, there are dance competitions, drumming, singing, artisans and a wide variety of Native foods to sample. I have always been a huge fan of frybread, a flat dough that is fried and eaten alone or with various toppings (both savory and sweet). This year, I decided to try the Amerindian Taco which was a base of frybread topped with traditional Mexican toppings and it was delicious, especially on a hot scorching summer day! So, last night, I made them at home… and they turned out AMAZING! To simplify things, I cheated a little and bought pre-made pizza dough to fry as the recipe is pretty similar. Fried pizza dough While they were frying I sautéed some onions, finely chopped some lettuce, d...