Friends and strangers

It's funny how strangers can become best friends just as easily as best friends can become strangers to one another. What may have started with a simple hello, might suddenly end with a complicated goodbye. This has happened to me a handful of times and I remember that I was never even mad about it... I was just very hurt, and that's a very specific difference.

It hurts when someone who made you feel so special yesterday, can make you feel so unwelcome today. I think the hardest part is not talking to someone you used to talk to every day. I mean, to just ignore each other, try to pretend the other doesn't exist, but deep down knowing that it wasn't supposed to be that way isn't easy.

And it doesn't matter if it was a relationship or a friendship; when it ends your heart breaks. In fact, in my experience, close friends have broken my heart in ways partners could never dream of! But, in many cases, even if they broke my heart, I still loved them with each and every one of the shattered pieces... at least for a little while.

So, do I hold high expectations in my relationships, specifically of my closest friends? Absofuckinglutely! And I make no apologies for it.

I don't trust words as much as I do actions.
I don't expect perfection, but I demand honesty.
I don't expect to be fully understood, but I refuse to be judged.
I don't stand for bullshit and I will call you out, but I expect no less in return.

I have been called dramatic, high-maintenance, emotional, and demanding. Whether I agree with all or none of the above, no one can dispute that I am also loyal, dedicated and a damn good friend to those who deserve it. I am by no means a perfect friend, I make plenty of mistakes, but I love the ones who stand by me through the storm and have learned to dance in the rain alongside me.