Letting go of 2017

The first half of the year wasn’t so bad, maybe even the first 2/3, but the end just royally sucked! I would love a redo from mid-August onward, but since that won’t happen… on to 2018!

I have been holding on to this quote by Chanda Kaushik for some time, and it seems like the perfect chance to share it now.

“I have outgrown many things. I have outgrown relatives who gladly offer criticism but not support. I have outgrown my need to meet my family’s unrealistic expectations of me. I have outgrown women who wear masks and secretly rejoice at misfortunes. I have outgrown shrinking myself for men who are intimidated by my intelligence and outspoken nature. I have outgrown friends who cannot celebrate my accomplishments. I have outgrown people who conveniently disappear whenever life gets a little dark. I have outgrown those who take pleasure in gossiping and spreading negativity. I have outgrown dull, meaningless conversations that feel forced. I have outgrown those who don’t take a stand against ignorance and injustice. I have outgrown trying to please everyone. I have outgrown society constantly telling me I’m not beautiful, smart, or worthy enough. I have outgrown trying to fix every little flaw. I have outgrown my tendency to fill my mind with self-doubt and insecurity. I have outgrown trying to find reasons not to love myself. I have outgrown anything and anyone that does not enrich the essence of my soul. I have outgrown many things, and I’ve never felt freer.”

And with that out of the way, I will add that I am not one for resolutions but I do have a wish list for the year ahead.

I hope that by the end of 2018 I will have a fully potty-trained 3 year old. I will work towards a happier working environment, be it in my current position or a new one; and I now embrace the idea of change. I will reign in my health further than I was able to accomplish this past year and already have some consultations lined up to help me. I plan to live by the rule of quality over quantity. And, above all else, I will continue the challenge of being the best mom I can possibly be. If motherhood were a GPS, it would mostly just repeat “recalculating”… and I am learning to accept that each and every day!

I will certainly be home in bed long before the ball drops in Times Square, but I will be thinking about all of you in my dreams! Good riddance 2017!

Ps. For those of you who were interested in the monthly wallpaper, here you go!

January 2018